I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man who had no feet.

I have a week left before i leave for college . I am super excited but i have come to notice that i have become very jobless . All my friends already got into colleges in the city and i am going to a completely different state . 
You know what they say , ' An idle mind is a devils workshop' . 
I have nothing better to do so i end up doing some really stupid things . 
Like contacting my ex . 
Advice for people who have had their hearts broken ( getting in contact BAD BAD BAD idea ) . And soon enough i pissed him off and a couple of other friends off because i need mellow drama in my life :-| . 
Its not my fault i had to go flaunt my opinions about the break up and life in general to people who dont give a shit about me . Okay maybe it is ...but that is not the point ! 
I felt bad they didn't agree with me . I
 felt bad because they started bitching about me . 
I started to breed in my sadness because no body wanted to be my friend .....or at least people who despise me didn't want to be my friend :P . 
I started to obsess over these weird  unnecessary things that at the time felt 'oh so very important' . 


So , thats when life hit me with this wonderful quote ; I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man who had no feet. 


why do we always sit and cover ...no wait BURRY ourselves with sooo much drama . 
Is my ex really worth it ? are my "friends" who have nothing nice to say about me really worth it ? 
I visited an animal shelter two days ago and when i saw the look in those lovely creatures ( dogs , cats, horses ...etc ) all i could think about was 'your existence is equally worth mine and yet human beings mistreat you in the most cruelest of ways '. 
I worry about what some random people think about me , waste hours and hours in a day thinking about what he said she said when there is some random creep out there chucking a stone at some dogs eye .


My point is life is this huge ball of many things . Its just that we focus all our thoughts and our energy on something that is so insignificant that we forget to look at the bigger picture . Forget to focus on what really matters . 
We worry about our hair , our make up , our friends , our exes ..but things that matter are gone un noticed . 


I feel stupid i wasted all my time on these silly pointless thoughts. 
Hurts , yes, but i cant control what others think . I can only control my feelings. 
And my feelings right now are telling me to go down to that shelter and play and help out those beautiful dogs . At least i am giving and receiving happiness this way .


All this may sound soo preachy ....but if you think about it...its true . If you admit it , then good for you :)